18th Week Ordinary Time
Year I Wednesday
Numbers 13:1-2. 25-14:1,
26-29, 35-35 Reflection:
In the first reading today we have another one of those readings that speak directly into our own lives.
Moses sends scouts to reconnoitre the land of Canaan. They come back with news that it is indeed a land flowing with milk and honey. But they also warn about the strength and height of the Canaanites and how they felt small in their presence.
When they heard the report some of the Israelites were afraid to go forward, others wanted to try it and see what happened. It’s the same with us.
We look into the future at some bright idea, we think about it, and part of us wants to go ahead and another part is afraid. This is particularly true when we are looking towards something good and bright or a good work for the Lord. We look at the plan, think about it and then become afraid. But part of us still wants to go on.
There is always that bit of our heart that listens to God and there is always that bit of our heart that wants to ignore him, that is afraid and is full of self concern.
This is not badness on our behalf. It is natural self concern.
What God calls on us to do sometimes is to leave the self concern behind and go on and trust him anyway—walk into the foreign land, even with its giants and trust that the Lord shall look after us anyway.
Spiritual growth is always accompanied by a little fear, otherwise it would be foolhardiness. God never calls for foolhardiness; but he does want us to trust him after a bit of serious reflection. At some point we have to decide to move!