There is a beautiful mystical sound to today’s first reading from the Book of Numbers. Balaam refers to himself as the ‘man with far seeing eyes.’
He says of Jesus, “I see him—but not in the present, I behold him—but not close at hand.” This single line sums up so much of our experience of Jesus. We can never quite catch him, he is always close but never quite within our reach, he is always near but we can’t quite grasp him.
Perhaps God meant this to be the way we perceive Jesus. Perhaps what God really asks of us is that we believe in a God whom is not at our beck and call but who is always just outside our level of consciousness, whom we can never quite grasp with our intellect or our eye.
Basically, we are called to believe in a God of faith, whom we cannot capture either in mind or body, but whom we know is there with us in some way.
That is what Balaam was talking about. He puts it so well and so many years ago!