We are in the the special three days prior to Easter called Easter Tridiuum.
Today we celebrate Maundy Thursday or Holy Thursday. It is the oldest of the observances peculiar to Holy Week. Maundy comes from Latin 'mandatun' and translates commandment.
Today's Gospel, John 13:1-15, doesn't have Jesus and the apostles having the last supper. In John's Gospel, Jesus is continuing to teach the apostles with the washing of their feet. After Jesus finishes washing the feet of the apostles he gives a new commandment...a mandatun...'I give you a new commandment: love one another; you must love one another just as I have loved you.'
The Gospel phrase 'fully aware that the Father had put everything into his power and that he had come from God and was returning to God'. Have you thought about this much? Jesus knew his time was coming to an end. What mixed emotions he must have had; sadness to leave this world with all it's good things and yet the happiness and anticipation he must have had to know that he would soon be 'with' God where sin does not come exist.
Even with this in mind, Jesus used every spare moment he had and tried to impart some wisdom which the apostles would be able to use.
Another phrase which struck me is when Jesus said “What I am doing, you do not understand now'. It makes me realize that sometimes our knowledge is not complete. We grow in our knowledge and we have to understand that sometimes experience, patience, time or observance is required to understand.
I am thinking about so many people who if they encounter something they don't understand immediately say 'well, that doesn't make sense, it must be wrong'.
Our faith is based on mysteries which our minds here on earth will not grasp 100% and yet we are asked to believe in faith. It isn't easy but it really boils down to the question do you have trust in God?
Jesus had 100% trust in God. He was facing death and yet he did not give up. What love Jesus had for the Father and for us!